Monday, January 17, 2005

More words

Heath has informed me that I must not over edit myself or I will never get any blogging done. Fair enough... hereafter is my stream o' consciousness, lacking in any form, function, or complete lists of things that it is lacking...

I am listening to some old rock-opera of War of the Worlds. I am looking forward to the new War of the Worlds movie but not really holding out any hope that I will enjoy watching it more than once. That's kinda sad. I am at work, working on sketches for a poster which is very cool, but I feel a little sad, and I don't know why.

I think about the baby, and I wonder if I'm worried about being a good father, but I think I will enjoy it. I wonder what role I will play in the baby's life. Maybe I'm afraid that I'll be like my father, a dreamer and mystic, pointing the way to a celestial ideal but snatched away and gone, and then there is only the long cold road of shaken faith between the golden glow on the horizon and the grim gray wasteland of loss.

I don't want to depress anyone. Liz doesn't like it when I talk like that. I want to... I want to do so many things.

I feel like I should have some grand goal that I am working toward, but I can't really braid all the little strings of my life together and make them go in one direction. I know they'll all come together evetnually, so does it really do any good to try to figure out how?

Oh well, I should get back to work. Hope you enjoyed the words.


Blogger Heath said...

1. No editing = good. Or at least only minor editing. Obsess over it too much and you'll just never write anything.

2. Baby. I'm sure anyone who reads this knows, but just pretend you get some random stragglers here. You haven't blogged about the baby. Some people could be rolling on the ground right now, jaws agape saying "BABY?!?!?!?!?"

3. However you're feeling is part of who you are. You can't just try and present the happy rosy side of things. That's not reality. Nothing wrong with admitting some of the darkness and melancholy within us all. It's natural. Just don't let it take hold.

4. As far as all the threads in the grand tapestry of life, I'm right there with you. It's wonderful to be where we are right now; satisfied and happy with our lives. However it's also good to still have goals, hopes and dreams. How boring would it be if you just honestly felt that you were as far as you ever wanted to go in life and there was nothing more? Sure we have great jobs and good lives, but we'd be fools to not have dreams and aspirations beyond that. We are truly lucky and blessed, but that doesn't mean we have to be completely fulfilled and stagnant. I'm sure there will be many more plot twists in ongoing stories of our lives.

1/18/2005 07:40:00 PM  

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